Rings

  I was reading through old blogs of mine last night from when Ava was born and we moved down to California.  Looking through all of the pics and reading my thoughts was so much fun!  I do that from time to time and am SO glad I have it all written down.  There have been moments I feel like it is a chore to blog, but mostly it has been a great outlet for me.  Formulate some thoughts that otherwise just get scrambled in my head and make me seem like a crazy person.

  What I know about myself to be true, and what I am going to work on is that when I have impending new things on the horizon I really internalize my emotions.  I get too stressed to talk about or think about what I have ahead of me or what I am nervous about.  I get really anxious and turn into a ball of nerves.  We got past the first day jitters, but I am SO nervous about starting in the classroom next week.  Not only that, since I am doing a child swap, I am watching kids for a day and I am a bit nervous about that too.  And then the big topper is that Mike will be doing some traveling for his job and that is coming soon too!  I think I am so nervous that I won't be able to do it all, and I don't know if I can cause I've never done all of this before!  And then I keep it all inside and withdraw.  I don't let my husband know, my friends know, and certainly don't blog it.  Having this space, another place to let it come out instead of stay in is therapy.  And for those of you that read that respond to me when things aren't all unicorns and rainbows here, I appreciate you.

  And in totally unrelated news, Mike got rings for our garage and mounted them so he can do muscle-ups.  The kids love playing on them and swinging from them, only when an adult is watching, of course.

    I am sure there are other things he wants to add to his home gym, but we have a pretty good set-up.  He collects gym equipment, I collect plates.  We all have our thing.  And hopefully, internalizing my stress will no longer be one of my things.  Way to tie it all together, Lindsay.  ;)

Happy Thursday!